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- Letter from James Allan to Vivien Beer, August 29th 1916
Letter from James Allan to Vivien Beer, August 29th 1916
Consists of a letter written by Captain James R. Allan to Vivien Beer. Item includes envelope and pressed flowers folded in a leaf of paper. Transcription is as follows: 10.30pm Tuesday-night, August 29th., 1916. My own darling Vivien:- Sweetheart mine you have been constantly in my thoughts today and especially so this evening. Came in early intending to write to you but got jabbering french[sic] and wound up by having a sort of lesson. My sweetheart I can hardly tell you how happy you[sic] letters, received yesterday, made me, especially the one dated August 9th 'cause in it #2 you are so frank. You darling. Now lovie mine I do know now how much you love me, though I did not when I wrote that letter saying you were just a little bit reserved toward me, nor had you as yet promised to be my very "ownest." My true love, you love me so much that if anything happened to me you would not want to live and would just die. My own darling I cannot find words to describe my feelings, but my heart simply overflowed with joy and love for you. #3 It was good of you Vivien darling to voluntarily make so frank a confession. It was just what I wanted to know too sweetheart, [viz]; if love for me sprung spontaneously from your heart, as it does from my heart for you. Now I know it does. Now I know I am all to you. Dearest girlie you have made confessions to me that mean all the world to me and I am infinitely happy. Yes my own darling sweetheart I have never had happier moments in my lifetime. Such a treasure to possess (you and your love darling). Little wonder I am the happiest of men. Listen dearie mine will you forgive me then for all the hurtful things I have said. I did not intend to hurt you, but I should never have written them. O my darling I love you so much that it hurts me to feel I have hurt your feelings. I realize now (for the first time in my life) what real love is and what it means to a girl. What I have said before #5 was my opinion and I now think as you think, that is; if true love exists between two young people nothing will change it, and it would not be possible for one of two's love to be won from the other by another (an outsider.) You say, "And there is true love between us, now isn't there sweetheart mine?" There certainly is my darling, the very truest and highest quality of true love my sweetheart. Dear love aren't you just perfectly happy (except for your separation #6 from me)? 'Cause that is the way I feel. Darling you spoke of putting your head on my shoulder. O my sweetheart my great big wish tonight is that you were only in my arms and I could just kiss you. O I long for you, for your companionship my darling, 'cause I love you so much, yes with my whole heart. But I can send a message of love and affection, and I do dear love. Thinking of you, Loving[sic] you true, sweetheart for you I am pining #7 It has been officially reported that Roumania[sic] has declared war on Austria. Germany is expected to declare war on Roumania[sic] almost any time now. Roumania[sic] coming in will certainly rush things to a finish in the Balkans. I hear the Bulgars are fighting Greek detachments though war has not as yet been declared by these two countries on each other. The news from the south continues good. The weather today has been wet and showery. Quite a heavy rainstorm occurred at #8 about 5.30pm today. Tonight it is quite cool. Had over 15 mile ride on my bicycle today and maybe I didn't perspire. My tunic and shirts were just soaking wet when I got back. But I always enjoy a good ["sweating out."] It makes one feel good afterward. All my love, regard, affection and beaucoup de kisses, Your ownest darling, Jim.