Letter from James Allan to Vivien Beer, August 30th 1916

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Consists of a letter written by Captain James R. Allan to Vivien Beer. Item includes envelope. Transcription is as follows: 10.15pm Rain, all day. Wednesday-night, August 30th., 1916. Vivien, my own true love; Darling mine I am thinking of you now and wishing, oh so much, that I were with you 'cause my heart just longs for your companionship, for those outward and visible demonstrations of love which can only be given when we are together. Sweetheart, do you ever think what companionship with me will mean, when you are my very ownest. How we shall enjoy the happy hours together when I am free from work. We love each #2 other so much darling mine that we will enjoy one another's company, or each others company (I think would sound much better.) I long to feel the joy your presence would give. Yes darling I would be oh so happy if only your head was on my shoulder (even if you were hiding your face so I would not see your pretty little blush, when I asked you to be my very ownest) and your dear arms about my neck. Then if you kissed me my darling I would be perfectly happy. You are a darling sweetheart for so frankly confessing how #3 much you love me and I love you so much for so confiding in me. Lovie mine forever you have brushed aside the veil of reserve and told me the innermost thoughts of your heart. And I am so glad to know them. Then I know absolutely that I have a sweetheart who is as true as steel and who loves me with all her heart and soul. Now Vivien I am remaining true to you and am not permitting anyone to get familiar with me. #4 Neither do I flirt. Knowing this in my own heart then and having the knowledge that you are remaining true to me, that you love me with all your heart and soul and that you love only me: Can't you see the sense of satisfaction it gives me, also the feeling that all my efforts to do good are appreciated by you and that it is worth while to live as I am living. But darling, brushing aside everything but the query #5 'Why do I love you.' my answer to such a question is, simply because my heart formed a natural attachment to your heart simply because that somewhere in my heart or soul I felt in you lay the realization of all my ideals. Probably I should say that somehow I was drawn to you by an irresistible force. O dearie mine I can't describe how it came about. Sufficient it is however to say that a very deep love of you is in my heart and soul and that #6 somehow you are fulfilling of everything I ever expected in my sweetheart. In short dearie we seem to have been cut out for each other. Now have I made myself clear. "Just what to say I canna'[sic] think, Cannot put my thoughts in ink But I love you darling mine, And will love you all the time." What I want to say I cannot, What I don't want to say I do, But my intentions are always good dear and I know you can read between the lines and will then understand. #7 Then you will know positively that I love you truly and you only and that it affords me the greatest of pleasure to remain true to you. Now aren't you happy darling mine? Had another lesson in french[sic] tonight. Wish I were staying here for a month or two then I would get a pretty good grasp of the french[sic] language. See by the papers the Germans are [wild] at Roumania[sic] for joining the allies. The news from all around is excellent. #8 It has poured rain all day so stayed in. We now have a set of boxing gloves in the Mess. I had them on twice today with two different officers and had some good [fun], though I am no boxer. Darling mine I send you my love, my regard, my affection, my heart, my all to be your very ownest, Your own darling, Jimmie